| When you want to write something.. what's better than xanga??
A lot of stuff happened during the past year. I realize the world is not as simple as I thought. Sometimes I look back at what happened, really really piss me off. How can I be so naive??? I saw it coming right at me, but I was blind. Well i guess that's part of growing up. You learn from your mistakes.
No matter through thick and thin. I know a certain HomeGirls will always be by my side. I know I don't see them often.. or talk to them everyday. Whenever I need help, they'll always be there. I miss one of them, I haven't see her in a while, or even talk to her. sigh.. I guess after the whole big incident, it's normal. I just want to let her know I'll always be there for her, I mean, dude.. we've been friends since 4th grade.. I've known her half my life already. No matter how long it's gonna take. As soon as she's ready, I'll be the first in line and say :wssup: i miss you bitch!: yup yup. I know that day will come someday :)
Right now. I am really thankful for what I have in my life. I have the best boyfriend that spoils me ROTTEN. Family that I know that's gonna love me and be there for me. And of course, my DownAss homies :) It's true when people say :: There's a rainbow after the rain :: As far as I see it.. I got nothing to complain about. Just live laugh and love..
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| hmm i notice how no one do xangas anymore but whatevers. itz been a year since i have update this thing. well might as well do something wen ima bored.
i notice one thing. even though wen a relationship didnt begin as expected... if 2 really loves each other. everything will be fine.. wen a couple have fights. it might seems like whoever calls the other person first is the begger. but in reality. that person cares more about the relationship and he/she just wants to work on it and doesnt want it to end. ima not afride to call matt back and tell him that we should talk even though i am the one who wants to break up in the first place. a relationship can only work if both knows breaking up is not an option. and working things out is the only way.
but sometimes. matt is so stupid. just makes me wanna stuck my foot up his ass >=[
itz ok though. we ll get through it. :D
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| well i havent update in a while.. ima in computer class again. did a whole lot of NOTHING.. haha.. anywayys... umm.. nothing really happen much.. i quit smoking.. because smokin is bad for you!! haha.ohh and ima gonna try to do better in school.. i js notice that i have like NOTHING plan`d ahead.. i dont even know what to do with my god damn future! i was planning to go into the hotel business and my brother is in it and all. so i dont have to begin with all hard and shiit.. kaka.. i can always js get a job at my broz hotel :D anyways.. i dotn know.. sometimes it feels like i am not going to have any future ahead of me.. ima js gonna be down on the street and be a damn hobo -__-'' jk.. i ll never be that low :D haha.. well anywhoo.. this is gay... i am feening.!! i cant help it..i need cigz.. but anywhoo.. ima try my best to quit :D kaka
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| welll no one's gonna read this shiit anyways so fuck it.. dont matter no moress.. ima explode on this shit:D
shiit havent been go`n my way lately.. it suxk.. i hate it.. cant kik it with eunice anymore.. sad.. aries a fagle.. like aways.. mannn this sucks.. i wish eunicez rahh here by my side rahh now.. i miss her like no other.. so much at a point itz mak`n me sad and wanted to cry.. T.T hmm.. ima get`n pretty lonely lately.. i feel like i need a damn boyfriend.. itz sooo gay not hav`n one.. no onez really there to rely on anymorez T.T feels like ih ave to be strong or someshiit. rawr** well havent blaze or drop in a while.. i have to admite i miss it alot.. buh i have to try no to do them anymore.. i have promise certain lamos in my life.. and i have to keep that damn promise.. :D haha fagle -_- mann comp class always makes me tired.. iono why.. fukc.. anywhoo ima knock`d out.. bye |
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| sometimes i just wish therez someone i can rely on. seeing eunice and aries together makes me feel how i miss having someone there for me.. even tho. katherine and eunice are the bestest friend i can ever wish for. also my sister spoils me rotten<33 i still miss having someone there i can depend on.. i am so tired of walking alone in the dark by myself. i dont even know what i want in my life. life sucks. i wish i can be happy again. hopefully.. well now i guess i can js put a fake smile on my face and pretend everything is ok. i feel like i am going to explode soon.. well dont matter.. whatevers.
well on the happy side.. me and eunice are gonna go to mammoth for vacation during winter break.. no more japan for me =( itz s`all good tho. at least i get to spend sometime with my bestest and get away from the damn drama.. haha.. road trip!! :D well i guess going snowboarding would be pretty boring if you dont know how -_- which is me -_- mann.. why the fuck aint i atheltic!! >=[ i want to be in track team.. fuck the only sport i know is swiming and ice skating.. ( i improved) :D well yea.. and maiibe some tennis even tho i suck.. buh whatevers. ahhh.. anywhoo.. ima sad and happy at the same ime i guess.. nothing matters anymorez.. mommie and daddy are put`n me on lock down.. fuck.. well i geuss i ll updae again soon :D |
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